Poetry and writing has always been a huge part of my life and I'm glad that I have ways to share it with other people, so I'd just like to thank everyone who's taken time to read my material, it really means a lot to me

 -Captain Jackiepop

I cared about you
I gave it my all
I put all my faith
In your beautiful little song
You turned your back on me
You lied and deceived
But I took you back
As Spring brought back the leaves

Time after time, the pain you brought built up inside
Time after time, I forgave and forgave
Time after time, I kept struggling forward
Time after time, it all seemed in vain

You did it again
You told me you cared
I didn't see it coming
My gift was the deceiver this time
I thought I reached redemption
And destroyed the demons inside
But now I know to embrace them
They are part of what I am

Time after time, the pain you brought built up inside
Time after time, I forgave and forgave
Time after time, I kept struggling forward
Time after time, it all seemed in vain

I'm done taking all your shit
I'm done listening to you say you're above me
No one is above anyone
Equality
You're not a god
Why'd I let you take over my life

I close my eyes
Another restless night
My fears are set aside for another attempt at rest
And I close myself to the world

Time after time, the pain you brought built up inside
Time after time, I forgave and forgave
Time after time, I kept struggling forward
And finally, I learned my mistake and fixed it

Time after time, you still treat me like shit
Time after time, you think you are still above me
Time after time, I pick myself up
My life is restored, I am whole again

I have my happiness back
No more false illusions that you created
And with the end of this song
You fade from my memory forever

Time after time, the pain you brought built up inside
Time after time, I forgave and forgave
Time after time, I kept struggling forward
Time after time, it was all in fucking vain
Just another harlot leashing another man

[...]

The pain is getting to me...
It's becoming too much to bear...
And as the leaves begin to fall off the tree...
I begin to no longer care...

I feel the pain surging...
My body slowly beginning to break...
And as I fall, hoping for my purging...
I see the leaves being gathered by the rake...

I lose myself, in this sea of fear...
Bound to neverfind myself again...
I feel the demons inside, my body begins to sear...
As the flames engulf the world of men...

I stand alone in the world now...
No blade at my side...
I ask myself how?
Did I let my life be taken by the tide...

I see the people around me...
Their lives as pleasant as can be...
If I only knew how their lives would be...
If only they could see...
The darkness that had enveloped the tree...

[...]

I know...
The potential for pain
Pain that is now unavoidable
Lies and deceit abound
I want to help my friend

My friend that has been there for me
The secret held
The lie being told
They'll never know
But I know

My friend...
You've helped me in the past
You were like my brother
What happened?

Now this secret held from you
Could very well be your end
I want to help you
After all, you'd do the same for me

The deceit
The lies
The darkness abides

I want to help you
But I'm scared of the consequences
Because I know
It happened to me too
I know how it feels
To be used

To have your heart played
Just like a violin
To be manipulated
Just like a puppet on a string

But I feel
There is nothing I can do
No matter what I do
There will only be more suffering
Should I tell you and risk you hating me?
Or should I let it hit you
Like a typhoon on a hut of sticks

No matter what happens
Just know
I'm your friend
Not your foe

[...]

Welcome to this land where people betray
Aren't you glad that I'm here to stay
At least I'm not some stalking freak
Who gets off every time you scream

All those times that I had to fight
Just  so you could breathe today
I'm tired of all these bullshit lies
That you feed me to keep me down
All these evilsflowing inside
It makes you just want to die
All these lies have finally caught up
Now you start to ask yourself why

You said you were sorry
You begged for me back
I simply smiled and I said alright
And then I snapped your fucking neck

[...]

How blind your love has made me
Unable to see the lies
How deaf your passion has made me
Unable to hear my own cries

Cries that exposed
Exposed your dark lies
Cries of the truth
That my love for you should end

You deceived my heart
Just to use me more
Took all you could from me
You were justa little whore

It finally all came to me
When your lips met his
And as your clothes hit the floor
I watched in despair
I watched in glee
Enlightened I could see
That you cared for me no more

Months pass and you feel the disease
Creeping inside you as you cease to breathe
You knew what you did was wrong
You still continued to sing your Siren's song

The song that chained me down for so long
You cry out your song one last time
In hopes that I'll return
Just give up
You know you'll just do the same thing again
And get rid of me when you're done
Just grow up

[...]